IF I DIE

John 5:24

“Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever hears my Word and believes Him who sent me has eternal life. He does not come into judgement, but has passed from death to life”

Death comes to all of us in one form or another. It might be the death of a parent  who is advanced in age and has somewhat prepared us for the loss but whose absence leaves a hole in our hearts nonetheless or it might be the sudden death of a dear friend whose departure not only deprives us
of a cherished companion but also reminds us of our very own mortality. Sometimes when faced with tragedies, we become bitter and angry at the world and perhaps at God. We wonder how  a loving Deity would allow such hoors to take place.

Psalm 23:4
“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me; your rod and staff, they comfort me.”

Why must death be so painful? Why couldn’t God wipe out our forefathers and create a new generation blameless and without sin? These are just but my wishes. But have you ever imagined that you died? It crosses my mind time and again.

At times I smile about it but at times I sob at just the thought of death.
During the days that I feel “holier than thou”, I smile about it because I know that all my sins are repented and at the sound of the trumpet I shall meet the Lord in the sky whether I be alive or dead.

Other days when sin has engulfed my heart and action, I get scared. I feel like crying, cold chills run down my spine, I’m confused…. There is no space for sinners in heaven. How do I make myself pure in the sight of the Lord at all times? How?

1st Thessalonians 5:4
“But you are not in darkness, brothers, for that day to surprise you like a thief.”

Revelation 16:15
“Behold I am coming like a thief. Blessed is the one who stays awake, keeping his garments on that he may not go about naked and be exposed”


Death for some is cruel. Most people never plan for it. What would happen if I die? I am not even sure of my state with the Lord. Is there a sin I haven’t confessed? How i wish there was a ‘sinmeter’ - something one could use to judge how much sin you have committed and the amount you have confessed.

Romans 6:23
“For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.”

Several things still cloud my mind about death.
Would people mourn about my departure? For how long?
Would anyone miss me? How long will it take to forget about me?

Had I died in my accident, I would have left a three month old son fatherless. I guess he might or would never understand. But I imagine him all grown up and telling stories to his friends and people of how his daddy died when he was young and he never really got to know him.

I’m imagining the mother showing him my pictures to make him understand who the father was - probably showing him our wedding photos because I don't have many photos other than those. It's a sad thought seeing my baby boy struggle through this life without me. How I would wish to offer him a helping hand. And if he would be doing good without me, I would imagine my presence would make it better.

I’m imagining my wife crying as she looks at my lifeless body. For sure, she knows how to cry, that I know. But would it be the normal one or would she cry until tears run out? Would she wail and scream and want to die with me? How long would she mourn my death? How long would she take before she moves on?Would she find a better man to take care of her and be a better husband than me because I understand she is a young widow and needs to move on.

I can’t bear the thought of my parents seeing me dead. Even as I write this I feel like I would shed tears. I can’t imagine! My father always says that if death was/is to come. It would rather take him and spare us. He also says something that I agree with: that it is better for a parent to die than to see a child die.

My sister, my brother, my relatives and my friends, would they miss me? Who would want to die with me? Look at the things I am thinking of! Should we/I be scared of death? YES & NO

WHY NO?
1 Corinthians 15:54 - 55
“When the perishable has been clothed with the imperishable and the mortal with immortality, then the saying that is written will come true; Death has been swallowed up in victory. Where O Grave is your victory? Where O Death is your sting?”

Death may be the king of terror at the moment , but Jesus is the King of kings. When the time comes for you to die, you need not be afraid because death cannot separate you from God’s love.

I write these stories because I escaped death on 14th August 2019 and again at AgaKhan University Hospital. God saved me and He saved me for a purpose. I’m still praying that He reveals this to me the purpose that was so important that despite the tragic accident, I still made it. I feel like I’m surely living on borrowed time. If I had died then, I would have died a sinner and my destiny would have
been sealed awaiting Christ’s return.

This write up is just an encouragement to all who are still on earth. :Let's not worry about death but strive to live righteously putting all our strength and focus on our Maker.

Philippians 4: 6 - 7
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything byprayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

WHY YES?
Only a sinner should be scared of death.

Romans 6:23
“For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

Brethren, do not tire; keep on keeping on !!!!!
Amen.